Tired Mama

Dear Maddy,

A day and a half, a day and a half, a day and one half… that is what Mama keeps repeating to herself over and over again. Daddy will be home in one and a half days. I cannot thank you enough for being such a good boy for Mama while Daddy is away. Even with you being the best behaved little guy, Mama is still tired.

You are so busy my baby boy! You are always on the run and just like any super happy, super busy two and a half year old, you are all sorts of messy. Everything you touch is like an explosion. Toys, DVDs, playing cards, food! You think it is such a treat to make a big mess then tell me about the big mess you just made. You like to test and see if I will make you pick it up with me and if you will go to time-out for not helping. I’m happy to say most times you help me and when you don’t the threat of time-out is enough to get you to help.

Even with you helping, there is so much “grown-up” stuff to be done. Garbage to be taken out, dishes to be washed, dried and put away, rugs to be vacuumed, clothes to be washed, floors to be mopped, food to be cooked. There isn’t much time in the mornings to complete the grown-up stuff. You and I wake up between 5:30 and 6:00am. Then we cuddle for 20 minutes are so. This is important and cannot be traded out for any of that yucky grown-up stuff. Then we get ready. You get dressed, I get dressed, we brush our teeth, get on our boots and coats and out the door we go.

Then when we get home there are castles to build, trains to race, shows to watch, play food to cook, dinner to cook. Then there are bathes to be taken, books to be read, goodnight kisses to be shared and then it is 8:00pm. At 8:00pm Mama is tired. Mama has worked a long day, played hard and would love to rest. That is where the grown-up stuff comes in. Daddy is the BEST grown-up stuff helper. Without Daddy being around Mama has a lot more to do. So Mama is tired.

Tired but happy. So happy because you are so happy. Today you went sledding for the very first time with your friend Michelle. I am sure you had a great time. I’ll find out in just a couple of hours when I pick you up. I think tonight we will do something fun. Mama needs to pick up some diapers, bread and milk so maybe we’ll go to Target. We’ll get some juice at the food court and run around like crazies. Maybe grab a sandwich at Panera? Home for a bath and some snuggles and then lather, rinse, repeat for just one more day without Daddy.

I love you Maddy Danger,
Mommy Danger

A letter from Daddy

To Maddox,

Your mom is much better about writing to you. Just because I don't write as often, or as much, or as flowery as she does...  I love you more than she does. Don't forget that. I'm your favorite. Say it. Thank you.

I am out in Ohio right now for training missing you and your mom like crazy. I should be paying attention to how to properly take a recorded interview, or what subperitoneal subluxation arthroscopic babble translates to in English. But for some reason all I can think about is you and your mom back home. Strange isn't it??

I have called home everynight to say goodnight to you and that has been the highlight of my day. I can't stand the fact that I won't be able to hug you for another four days. I'm sure by the time you read these letters it will have been a lot longer since we hugged, but you should know I have never stopped loving being near you and holding you.

You made my day today. Well you do that most days.

Today was different. When I called home tonight I read you "the going to bed book" by Sandra Boynton. For Keith, who is never tired.  We read this every night and it is the last book we read before we tuck you in and turn out the lights.

After I read you the story you said goodnight and that you loved me and I was saying goodnight to mom and she told me the best news I have ever gotten.

As she was driving you home from Jen's house earlier in the day you were talking about Thomas the train and saying how Mavis was Thomas' best friend. When mommy asked who your best friend was you said it was me.

I guess today I am your favorite.

I couldn't be happier. I don't have any way to say this more emphatically. There is no concievable way I could feel any better about myself, or our family or descisions that your mom and I have made.

You gave me all I ever wanted,  so I had to write you this and say thank you.

I love you.
Daddy

Twenty-four hours down

Maddy,

Well, we made it. Twenty-four whole hours without Daddy.  You’ve been awesome.  You know Daddy is at work, in Ohio, wherever that may be.  You know it’s far away; farther than you can see out the window in the living room.  You also know it will be a long time before Daddy comes home. Really, you’ll get to see him Saturday but for a two and a half year old six days feels like forever.

To be honest, it feels like forever to Mama too.  Your Mama and Dada have yet to be apart from one another for more than 72 hours and even that was only once.  We love you and our little family unit so much and are so happy being together that it is hard to go away for any amount of time.  I’ve always thought this was “normal” but sometimes Mama thinks we are the odd ones out.  I digress darling.

We spent all of Valentine’s day with Grammy and Papa.  That was pretty wonderful. We took Daddy over for Valentine’s breakfast with Joe, Heather, Uncle and Tina.  Grammy and Papa got you "a special present for a holiday" as you call it.  Yummy chocolates!  You gave Daddy a big hug and kiss then Mama took him to meet his friend Armando and wish him well on his trip.

Back at the ranch you and Papa watched Daytona 500, you helped Grammy and me make everyone crème brûlée and we built on heck of a big, big train track.  It sprawled from the kitchen to the hallway through the foyer and the dining room.  It was wonderful.  You had Spencer, Nevel, Emily, Toby and Murdock chasing each other.  For lunch we had soup that Uncle Mickey made us.  You drank most of your broth and even had some carrots.  I was impressed.

We finally headed home around 6:30pm.  Got you in your jammies and we cuddled on the couch and watched Thomas till bedtime.  You were such a good boy.  You didn’t ask for Daddy at all but you gave me an extra hug and kiss for him at bedtime.

Mama is excited to spend this whole week with you.  Today it’s just you, Jenn and Sig.  Jenn has lots of fun things planned for you today.  I’m going to be excited to get you tonight.

I love you Maddy,

Mama

  

Denists and parties and choo-choo trains, oh my!

Oh Moo,

You are a handful.  In the very best way a handful could be.  You, my baby, are always on the go.  You always have been and always will be in motion.  Yesterday you came up with a brilliant idea.  Out of nowhere you asked for a party.  A party with decorations and pink cupcakes and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.  How could Daddy and I say no?

Valentine’s Day is just around the corner and Daddy is about to leave for a week to go to training in Ohio.  What better way to spend our last day with Daddy than to have a party.  We invited Nani and Saru (Mako and Wall-e too) to come to your party.  I think I’ll make mini vanilla bean cupcakes with strawberry butter cream frosting.  Those should be pretty pink.

Pink is your favorite color lately.  It’s so much fun how you get excited over pink crayons and markers.  It’s such a bright, vibrant color, how could you not love it?

Yesterday you had your first follow-up dental appointment since you broke your jaw 9 months ago.  You were perfect Maddy.  Just perfect.  You sat still for Dr. Scott the whole time while he cleaned your teeth and tapped them with his tools.  You loved giving Daddy and Mama rides in Dr. Scott’s special chair.  You were so wonderful in fact we took you out for a hot dog and French fries afterwards.  It looks like you have two hairline fractures in your front two teeth but Dr. Scott days that’s okay.  Such a better prognosis than we had originally thought.

At two and a half you are firmly entrenched in the age of two.  The age of testing every rule that Daddy and I have ever given you.  You constantly contradict everything we say.  Tell us how you “can’t” do this or that.  Oh what trouble you try to cause.  But what better way to learn the rules than to test them again and again.  And again, and again, and again, and again.

Your obsession with trains has tripled in the last month.  Papa introduced you to Thomas the Train on television and I could have killed him.  Not literally.  You’ll understand when you are bigger and Mama and Daddy are watching a show that is less than amusing to you and we watch that show over and over until you can recite every line.  I digress.

It is hilarious to watch you in the morning right before we leave for Jenn’s.  You run to your toy box and take every die-cast Thomas train friend you can grab and stuff them in your coat pockets until your coat pockets are full.  Once your pockets are full you hand the remainder to Daddy and me and ask us to put them in our pockets.  You had so many in your pockets yesterday I couldn’t buckle you into your car seat!

For two days now Mama has not worked a single minute while you’ve been awake (truth be told, I haven’t worked many of them whilst you were sleeping either) but I think you’ve noticed.

I’m excited for our week that will be just you and me.  A little nervous just because I love having your Daddy around so much, but I know you and I will be just fine.

I love you baby Moo.

Mama

The reason

Baby Moo,

You are probably curious why mama is writing you letters.  Why she is posting them all over the internet when you cannot even read yet.  Well Mad, you told your little buddy Sig something yesterday that broke Mama’s heart.  You didn’t mean to break my heart, but it did.

You told Sig that Mama was home.  Then when he asked you if you were sure you said “No.  She’s at work.  She’s always at work. I’ll find a way get her back.”  Oh, Maddox.  At your tender age of two years and five months, you are so brilliant.  So very eloquent and well spoken.  That very sentence has opened my eyes wider than they have ever been.

You see sweet pea, the reason you said that is because your mama has been working a lot.  Every morning she gets up and starts working for her very own letterpress wedding invitation company.  This is a brand new business and needs all kinds of TLC to get off the ground.  Amongst the thousands of reasons why mama wanted to join in this venture with her friend Jodi, is so she can work from home.  With you. 

Then after I’ve devoted 30 minutes or so, I get you dressed, kiss you and off you go with Daddy to play with your friend Jenn.  Mama goes to her day job, which she doesn’t like at all.  For nine hours all mama does is think about you and ways to make her part-time job her full time job.  Then when it is time to leave I call you at home with Daddy.  You always ask me to come home right now and I always tell you I’m almost there.

When I get home, I start to work on my part-time job again.  Mama loses steam after you go to bed and wants to use all her working energy to get this business of the ground with flying colors.  I sit next to you on the couch; you always rest your head on my arm.  We watch Thomas or Dora then we have dinner.  Sometimes mama has to be on the phone, sometimes mama is writing ideas.  Always busy your mama is.

Then Daddy gives you your bath; mama works some more.  Then we read you your stories and put you to bed.  You always ask for just one more book.  Now I know why.

Today is the day this routine changes Moo.  There is nothing that cannot be done after you go to sleep.  The world will not end if I write a blog post for tomorrow at 10pm instead of 6pm.  The world will end if you think Mama works all the time and has no time for you.

The fact of the matter is I will always need a job.  Daddy and I want you to have a good life Maddox and part of that is providing.  We need money to provide and we need to work to have money.  Yet the precious moments that I could devote to you, I’ve given away.  That is unfair.

No more Maddox.  You’ll get your mama back.  I promise.

I love you, 

Mama